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I'm all these things in no particular order: human being, woman, Mother, wife, house maintainer, daughter and overwhelmed. My motto is "live life outloud". Keep keen your sense of humor. One day it'll be the only thing that keeps you sane.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

I Am Me Again

It's as if the clouds have parted and I am ME again.  The me that semi-strangers would say "Wow, Andrea, I never would have thought you were an such an angry person dealing with depression since your teens and have been in and out of doctors offices and therapy for years."  That's not to say that I don't have bad days here any there but I am in control of my emotions now.  I needed help, I asked for help, I got help.  I have control of my life.  I am not abusing any sort of substance to be comfortable in my own skin.  I am eating good, healthy, real foods (most days, this is, after all, my weakness).  I am a better wife and a better mother for these things.  I am praying to my higher power and leaning on him when I need strength.  I am proud of me.  I am regaining my sense of humor and finding myself again.  I just have to keep at it.  Keep working on myself and developing negatives into a positive picture.

It's good, it really is good.  

My next goal is to get on an exercise regimen.  Since it's been summer I have been counting all our outside time and trips to the pool as exercise even though it's not.  I'd rather enjoy the summer to tell you the truth.  Fall and winter are around the corner and since we have a membership to a gym with daycare I can start planning that out.  I may even start lap swimming on the weekends. Which means I'll be in the market for a swim cap and goggles (eeee!  reminds me of High School!)  

I am hoping that this fog I've been in for a long, long time is clear.  Clear enough for me to dive back into things I feel like I have talent for like writing, makeup, communicating and teaching (my children).  Who knows where I'll go, what I'll do.  No more excuses, no more martyr.  Life is too short.

Welcome back, Andrea


  1. Andrea, Patricia here. You know, I understand exactly what you've been through, because I have suffered with depression more than half my life. Not as much when my kids were young because I was so busy I didn't have time to think about anything but their needs. I am really glad you have found yourself and give you kuddos for working through your inner demons. Alicia and I were just talking about you today, saying how awesome you are and how pretty and smart! The one thing I noticed about you the few times we were together is that you are a very classy person and very respectful of others. It's hard to view yourself as others view you, but you really ARE a super precious person that others can't help but love.

    1. Thank you, Patty. You have no idea how much that means to me, you saying that. :)